Question by : Liquid CONFIDENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???…?
I am an extreme anti social. I doubt anyone on here comprehends how it feels to be excessively shy. I hear so many people say “I’m shy”, yet in time they build confidence around familiar people. These people piss me off because they think they understand how I feel, so they don’t understand why I can’t open up and be myself. At home, I’m always in the spotlight, loud, crazy, wild, fun, and at school, I sit alone because I prefer it. I prefer it because I’m so shy, I would rather hide, and when I’m approached, I choke up, and when I can’t carry conversation around social people, I turn red. Once, I had a full blown panic attack in front of my whole class during a presentation. I actually had to collect myself by covering my face for a few minutes. At the end, I was fighting tears and bright red I was so embarrassed. I try to tell myself just open up! But this takes “it’s easier said than done” to the extreme. I always end up feeling awkward. And at this point, if I try to open up, OTHER PEOPLE will think I look awkward because they’re so used to my shyness. For them it would be like WHOA. JUST STOP. So I want to switch schools and learn how to be myself. One of my theories was I would start using METH because I heard it was a major confidence booster. Then I was all of the other negatives effects, but in the end my mind was made up. However I got a little taste of the comedown by taking Aderall. OH MY GOD it was the shittiest feeling ever. And I know that meth is like that times 20,000, so I started looking into other things, like crack and coke, and I realized that felony drugs were not the way to go. SOOOO I’m thinking that I’ll start drinking before school everyday, because when I got drunk for the first time I was 100 percent me, even though I was definitely not in the company of my family. If there is a legal medication for extreme shyness, could someone tell me?
I’m not just doing this for my social status either. I’m a flautist, and I hope to one day play in the New York Philharmonic. When I’m practicing alone, I can produce a champion’s sound. But when I’m in front of people, I physically start shaking and cant even produce a tone. My shyness is just a set back. It’s too extreme to even be called cute. I need confidence to make it through an audition for the New York Phil, or they’ll walk me out of the door personally.
Best answer:
Answer by HITACHI pete
drink it up it’s good for you
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