I Need SOMETHING, and I Need It Now. Assistance With Just What That Thing Is?
Question by Kayley Angel: I need SOMETHING, and I need it now. Assistance with just what that thing is?
I’m not going to bore you with long paragraphs, rather, I’m going to state all the facts in organized lists. I’m like that.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE READ IT ALL! Don’t just assume and skim over things. Thanks so much for your time regardless.
1) I am 16 years old. An Earth-Spirit type girl with a cushy but not flabby tummy, average body, big eyes and golden brown hair, standing 5′ 8″.
2) Three years ago, I was diagnosed with severe/suicidal depression after a handful of suicide attempts and two run attempts, and was placed in an in-patient facility for a month.
3) Afterwards, I was still depressed, but only a little. By the next year I was healthy and happy again. Everything seemed to be going great.
4) Until now. Now, I’m acting more looney than depressed, giving in to OCD habits, never sleeping the night through because of nightmares or light sleep in general, having extreme worry and anxiety, experiencing place-loss and overall acting WEIRD.
As you just read, I am currently facing some sort of phsychological distress. My symptoms:
– Racing Heart, Clammy Hands, etc.
-Random anxiety in general~ when I’m concentrating on something really hard, all of a sudden I’ll get up and start pacing the house. In the worst case, I dashed outside in the middle of the night and started pacing up and down the driveway in my undies, in thirty degree windy weather, for no apparent reason at all. Sometimes, instead of pacing, I’ll snap and start busting out in song, putting on make-up over and over and over, cleaning my room over and over and over, brushing my hair over and over and over…
-Horrible muscle tension. I’m always twitching or shaking or else tapping my feet or rolling my wrists.
– I can’t sleep. I either stay up all night without a moment of rest, or am troubled by tossing and turning for hours, nightmares, and general light sleep.
-Worry about getting in trouble 24/7. Rather soiciopathic, I hate getting in trouble or yelled at and go out of my way with schemes to make it not happen.
-Fleeting imagination. Being a fiction writer, it’s natural I imagine all sorts of things off and on…But it’s starting to get ridiculous! EVERYTHING I DO becomes fantasy in my mind. When I’m driving to the store, I’m ‘really’ driving to answer an FBI distress call. The chick in the stall next to me is ‘really’ a witch in tote of a spellbook. Everywhere I turn, my mind spins fiction. It won’t stop, and enough is enough! 🙁
-I’m both over-eating and under-eating. I skip about two meals a day, and my dinner is often composed of fatty things I crave at the moment. I also eat late into the night, since I’m not sleeping anyway.
-Drug abuse. A few weeks ago, I got sick of my weird anxiety issues and started drinking cough syrup every night because it calmed me down and made me relax, I know it’s awful, but…
-Wanting to do crazy-*** crap. Once in awhile, more often than not, I fantazize about stealing my dad’s car and running away in it. In the most bizarre cases, I fantazize about breaking into people’s houses just to suprise them…for a good laugh, for God’s sake!
Here comes the big kahoona: I’ve never told anyone. At all. Not even my dad. Why? I’m terrified of dissapointing him iin my ‘progress’ by getting reffered to a therapist. I’m even more terrified of a second dose of in-patient treatment.
Somebody please tell me what to do! I’m lost and growing loonier by the minute! Anyone? Please? You have no idea how scared of MYSELF I am right now…I need to figure something out. Anything.
Best answer:
Answer by Tonya
Asking this question here is probably useless. I am sure your problems are real, but they are very complicated. I would strongly advise seeing a professional to give this list of symptoms and behaviors to. I’m afraid here, you will get silly answers, smart asses who will make fun and not find real help.
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