I’m seventeen years old and thus far I’ve completely wasted my life. I grew up in a happy home with perfect parents. They showed me abundant love and I don’t blame them at all for my predicament. For reasons too complicated to explain I spent my entire teen years immersed in violence and drug addiction. I am without a doubt hopelessly addicted to methamphetamine and heroin. I’ve committed countless other sins in the pursuit of some twisted ideal that no longer makes sense or appeals to me in the way it did before. To make a long story short, I’m currently out on bail waiting to be tried as an adult for attempted murder. If convicted, from what I understand, I would be sentenced to thirty five years give or take half a decade. I base that just on what my lawyer has told me and the information provided in a video I sat through at my initial hearing. Thirty five years seems as good as a death sentence. I’ve come to terms with the fact that if im convicted I will never find love, raise a family, or live to see any grand children. My question to you is, what should i look to for hope? Can I carve out a purposeful existence in prison? If so, how? Any advice would be appreciated.
I really hate to do this, but there’s an article about me in a local newspaper where I live ( bloomington indiana) called the herald times. If you google Lucas Johnson attempted murder it should come up. I’m sure you don’t believe me but thats the best I can do 🙁