My Husband Blames Me for His Drug Addiction and Relapse?

my husband was in rehab for 7 months straight out of prison. he was out only a month and a half until he relapsed last week. he had to stay in jail for 5 days. he told me the reason why he relapsed is because we always fight. we always fight because i don’t trust him. why should i? he’s lied to me numerous times in the past that he quit doing drugs and going to aa/nn meetings when he was still using. he also has a addictio to lying. i think he might be a pathilogical lier because he lies about anything and everything to everyone including his family. we fight alot because i always call him on his lies. he got kicked out of his half way house last week when he told me and his roommate he would be going to jail because his couselor sent his UA to the lab and the results will be coming back positive. his room mate yelled at me, told him he should leave me because my husband blames me for the reason why he does drugs and relapses all the time. i viewed his criminial record online jus now because he said he doesn’t know when he has to go back to court because he’s in drug rehab. this is what it says on the court minute text.

DEFENDANT ADMITTED TO COURT THAT HE RELAPSED AND
SHOULD HAVE ASKED FOR HELP WHEN HE HAD ARGUMENT
WITH HIS WIFE. COURT ADVISED DEFENDANT TO CALL
SITC OR SUPPORT SYSTEM FOR ASSISTANCE. COURT
DIRECTED DEFENDANT TO SET UP CRISIS PREVENTION
PLAN, USE IT AND PROTECT HIMSELF WHEN THE SAME

see he blames me for his drug addiction. why can’t the judge and his councelor see that his drug addiction is his fault and not mines. i don’t know what he says about me to them. i had called his councelor 2 weeks ago and left her message saying to test my husband because i think he is using again. of course he died it. he said he wasn’t using at the time and the reason he relapsed is because i told his councelor he was using which he claimed he wasn’t using at that time yet. he tells people i’m crazy and i only say these things because im mad at him. he says i stalk him because i don’t believe him that he’s going to his na/aa meetings which is so not true. i’ve only been to one aa meeting with recently. the other times he says i can’t come because he doesn’t want me to come and we fight about it because i don’t believe he’s actually going because he’s lied about attending them in the past. he’s also been to a meetings before when he was high. if he’s really going i don’t know why he won’t show me his meeting papers anymore. when he first got out he would show me his paper that was signed by the person in charge of the meeting and now he makes some lame excuse he lost them when i found it in his bag when i was looking threw them. i knew he was lying because he said he lost wallet with his meeting paper, debit card and some cash that was in their because he called me from the store and said he was buying dinner. i told him i thought you lost it, he said someone sent it to him in the mail at the half way house. the only address in his wallet is his id from our house. their was no address with his half way house address on it. i can’t believe he blames me and the courts believe everything he says. they blame me too. should i jus divorce him. i don’t know how much i can take of this anymore. he told me the councelors said to get a restrianing order on me because i left a message telling his councelor to test him for drugs. i don’t know why they would say that since he won’t tell me what he told them.

after all this i love him still. we’ve been together for 12 years since i was 15. married for only 3 and our son will be 6 next month. i’m afraid my son wants to be like my husband because’s he’s been misbehaving in school alot and when i ask him why he says he doesn’t want to be good. he wants to be bad. what should i do? i’m avoiding my husbands calls right now.
i also have depression and social anxiety. i’ve always suffered depression but every since my husband started using drugs its gotten worse. i guess he blames me like how i blame his for why i feel sad and isolate myself all the time but its hard when someone you love abuses drugs, lies to you and blames you for the reasons why they do what they do. i can’t believe he would do this. his jus lost his dad in december due to drugs. his real mom and step mom also died from drugs. i don’t know why he is doing this. sometimes i jus want to end my life because i don’t have anyone only my husband, my son, my mom and my brother. i don’t have anyone i can confide in because like i said i have social anxiety. i don’t have any friends to talk to and my therapist can’t see me until june 3rd because he’s booked.