I carry a very heavy burden of guilt and shame. My sister who is 4 years older than me has 2 sons which lived with her and her husband over 4 years ago. I was taking vicodin daily, addicted to it, and I had a girlfriend that I was living in sexual sin with. My sister and her husband wanted the vicodin so I would get for them. Now my sister has had a history of drug use but wasn’t using when she got married. Eventually the vicodin turned her into wanting crystal meth. She started using very heavily and became addicted. months pass and she is neglecting her boys and is not to well. One day my moms friend invited me to church and I went to help volunteer. I left church and decided to stop at her house. My nephews were skinny from not eating and in dirty diapers on the porch crying by them selves. I am very sensitive so I decided to call child protection services. They came and got the boys and my sister was alone. I went and picked the boys up and they came to stay with me my mom and dad. Ever since then I have lived in darkness and guilt and angry at god to a very high level. My sexual sin has made me angry and and as my life was falling apart so was my sisters. Then the boys come and everything really got worse for me. I have fought this for so long but it keeps finding a way to bring me down and destroy me and my family. Does anyone have good insight or suggestions on what I could be feeling or what I can do to change this. SORRY I GOT SO DEEP.
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