Why Am I Jealous of Them?
Question by Laura: Why am I jealous of them?
My mom abused drugs before and after gestation with me, and she went all the way with my brother and sister. They’re really annoying, and my brother has eczema, so we live with our aunt, her husband, and her son, who is the same age as my sister, who is 10.
My mom is in a nursing home because she developed MS 8 years ago, and her health is deteriorating. My aunt, who I look at as my mother gets a check for us, and food stamps. Her husband is currently unemployed. I like to do tinker with computers and edit videos and pictures. It’s a hobby in machinima I found a year ago.
Recently, we have been staying at my oldest aunts house, and she moved about two weeks ago. I hate it! I always wonder why we always get second best.
She has bought 7 cars for herself and her sons, over the past 4 years. She has 3 sons. So tell me why her oldest son, about 30, she STILL pays his bills, buys his clothes, he doesn’t do anything! Last spring, she bought him a brand new laptop, with pro-tools or whatever. (He’s an aspiring rapper.)
It bothers me, that I have a computer she bought me 2 years ago, suffered water damage from a recent plumming incident that happened yesterday. The power supply blew out a few weeks ago, and I wanted to buy a new graphics card as well.
Her 2 youngest sons have jobs, go to college, and things, but I feel it’s unfair.
They have HD tv’s, gaming consoles, tons of games, new laptops, mini fridges, new bedding and things like that, and lots of nice clothes, and I was wondering if it’s normal to be jealous. I mean, I have NO clothes, and the ones I do, my “filler figured” younger sister wears out. My mom says “wash them in hot water” but it just makes it worse from water damage. My older aunt gives my sister clothes because they wear the same size. I’m ALWAYS left out.
Remember when I said I practiced machinima, I do, and I use sims 2, and it’s expansions as a medium.
It really depresses me, because when my younger cousin got his PS3, he NEVER shares, exept for me, on occasion. I might sound like a whiny little brat, but they’re MY feelings. and I’m hurt.
It may seem like she doesn’t do much for her oldest son, but most of the cars listed, where his. She buys clothes for his girl, his best friend, and her little spawns. she had 2 initially, with the exception of the youngest who’s his daughter.
My mom has said something, but gets her head bitten off each time.
I’m sick of not having what I want, or better yet need for school.
I’m tired of telling the kids at school “I don’t have one”
I’m sick and tired of being jealous! I wish we were all treated the same.
My uncle needs a job!
My mom needs to go back to school too.
and I know I look spoiled too, but I do feel like we get more love and affection than they do.
They get yelled at for asking for something, and get it later.
We ask, and never get.
I know it bothers my mom to tell us no, and poverty is something else, but I don’t like it.
They have cars, a better house, nice furniture, and material objects.
Love can’t make a script and get me into film school.
I need help, and advice, because it’s not like we use her, because we’ve been here the WHOLE year, helping her take care of her house, cooking, cleaning, and making sure she doesn’t suffer loneliness, like she said over the phone.
I need to be happy, and get over this, so please help! I don’t want these feelings!
– Kanessa
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