What Do You Do When Life Becomes Unlivable?

Question by Deb’s Third: what do you do when life becomes unlivable?
.constant chronic pain, living in poverty, due to SS disability, not enough food, (pretty much NO food) major depression, addiction to meds for panic and pain.I want to go to sleep and NEVER wake up again. Major depression meds not working,gtting to where I cannot even drive or go to mailbox,to see all the medical bills piling up there..leaving phone off hook so I don’t call too many “crisishotlines”.and so collectors do not reach me..trying as best as possible to detox from narcotic painkillers,but the moment I am awake, all the stress, pain, hunger and loneliness set in…cannot reach dr here in small town I live in this weekend..I want to die Lord Jesus..please let me die.this has been going on 5 years..how much is one person supposed to take? Major joint deterioration in jaws and herniated disks started all this in 2004.have tried a detox unit…only made me MORE suicidal..medical doctors cannot treat the pain with the anxiety so high, and psych drs cannot treat the depression and panic with the stress so high..Jesus Christ..I served you all my life..I cannot take this much stress..I simply cannot, Lord..been starting to even turn to alcohol the last two weeks, to try to knock myself out from all the stress..(only adds to the guilt feelings) but kow it will all still be there, only worse, with alcohol..I live in the region where hurricane Ike hit..businesses are closing down here..even one I relied on to try to regain strength fron health products (which I can no longer afford).Christians and doctors only, respond, please..my dr “not available”.how am I going to make it through another weekend in a slum apt? Have acid reflux and constant hiccups after taking the alcohol..Jesus, come back. take these demons out of thought life and my body..I simply cannot stand the nervous anxiety that shakes me from head to toe, and all the memories of traumatic events, and current stress in my life…no family, no friend to call..help me Jesus..Holy Spirit filled, Chistians only, or CHRISTIAN DRS respond..you are the only ones I trust..( no offense to others) NO CHURCH HERE Can help.so don’t even bother suggesting that..I am in hell on earth.there HAS to be some help somewhere

Best answer:

Answer by LEC
You need to practice what you already know. Crying, complaining, making poor choices are fighting against your problems and issues. Surrender yourself to all of it and place yourself in the arms of the Jesus you call out to. Only when you accept where you are and stop resisting and simply be in the Now will you find release and relief.

That may sound all philosophic and born again kind of stuff…but there is a lot of truth in it. I lived in deep black depression for years and it was only going to work everyday and forcing myself to stay on target with what I had to do there that kept me from suicide. Finally I saw a program that took me back to my spiritual self that had been lost in the world of a professional work field. I had, in my younger years, believed that we are all a part of the same source of energy and if we live in that energy and enjoy living in that energy then all our needs are met. And for many years they were. Then I decided to get an education and I became a professional and lost my way in bureaucracy and work-a-day nonsense. Then at the very depth of my bleakest night I heard the message from a spiritual teacher and was pulled up and out and my original belief system renewed and I rejoiced and I have not had even a minute of depression since.

I had plenty of excuses to be depressed too, but I was able to sustain myself in my belief. Then a year or so ago I heard another spiritual teacher on Oprah and he sealed the door on depression and complaining and fighting against those things I cannot control. I still have pain, I still have to live on limited income, I still have a level of poverty, but it is not who I am…it is the circumstances of my life and I accept those circumstances and so the pain is less, the poverty is reasonable and I consider myself blessed.

The ease and comfort you are so desperate for is within you. Be still and look into yourself for it…it is there and all you need will come to you if you accept your situation and have faith.

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