So Depressed….can’t Do Anything?
Question by Question?!: So depressed….can’t do anything?
I’ve felt like this for a long time…I hate waking up every morning, I hate seeing the sun, I hate seeing other people. I find it hard to get a full breath, my chest feels like its being crushed. I’ve always got that pre-cry lump in my throat but I never cry.
I’d really just like to die, but I have a lot of people who wouldn’t want this, and I can’t bring myself to hurt anyone BUT myself. Every time I get in my car to drive to school or work, I can’t help but feel this urge to just glide off into a wall or a lake…
I had been using drugs, starting from marijuana and alcohol and in just two months to methamphetamine and Heroin. I was arrested for dealing then sent to rehab where I became sober. I’ve been sober for 6 months. But I cannot deal with this depression for much longer without my chemicals.
Because I’ve become sober all of the “friends” I had before, who all used, no longer have any interest in spending any time with me. And the people who don’t use do not want to be my friend.
I’m in love with a girl whose told given me the whole “I just wanna be friends” speech. I don’t think she really wants to be my friend, she never calls, she never texts me, she never says hey on facebook or something. I always say hello, but I cannot stop thinking about her and how happy I’d be if she felt the same way about me.
My sister is being sexually taken advantage of, and what I get for helping her is slap to the cheek or spit in the face. My mom thinks all of my problems can be solved with medication so she’s get me taking retarded amounts of medication that just make me numb. My dad’s an alcoholic douche bag who left when I was 10, I don’t see him.
I’d really like to die, or at least start shootin the heroin again, but I don’t want to hurt anyone else….I guess writing this shit on yahoo answers is enough proof of how fucking pathetic I am.
I already see 3 shrinks and have more fucking problems then I could have ever imagined. I’ve got HPPD, and hope someday I just slip into a trip, lose my mind, and remove my head via shotgun blast.
Best answer:
Answer by Lo Mejor
Ha Ha your right about the last part, but then again, everybody who answers you is just as pathetic. So, anyway, um ya, sounds pretty bad dude. you might want to get that checked out.
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