Residential Treatment & ED !

My values,morals any faith literally plummeted so far during the week and very quickly.I felt I had no sole person I could talk to and say how I really felt because it is all shared back to the group. I made the decision to leave very very carefully and contacted close friends,my psychotherapist,parents&brother.I spoke to the night staff,told them my worries/concerns,took feedback willingly and also wrote down the pros and cons. Today I am going very well with food,I am adamenet that recovery is possible,there are no time limits but I beleive taht full recovery is possible 100% and that the 12 step programme is not for everybody. I gave it my all,the days were so so long,I was physically wrecked but held out willingly to see if this place could be of help. I had to go when I realised how bad I was feeling in myself and estranged I felt and not being able to express it.I wasnt allowed to read or write there.. positives:This gave me such an eye opener.That it is very possible to be adament about recovery and surrender by doing what you KNOW you have to do.I was so disappointed feeling so ‘wrong’ in this place but also knew in my heart,mind&soul that if I had stayed it would have ruined me mentally. I’m holding out,staying strong and doing my very best right now.I will be doing an OP hospital based programme in weeks to come which I will look forward to and be happy to throw myself into everything with as much positivity possible. The place scared me to death even though it …
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