Q&A: Life Is Not Getting Any Better… Don’t Know What to Do Anymore.?
Question by : Life is not getting any better… Don’t know what to do anymore.?
About a month or 2 ago I posted my life situation on yahoo answers…
Since then, everything is worse.
I feel more unmotivated then ever. I don’t want to do anything. I’v gone days without eating and just drink from the tap when I feel the need to goto the washroom.
What makes my feel even more guilty, is in the past month I have started using drugs/alcohol as an escape. Before the last month, I had only been drunk only a few times in my life and never tried any form of drug. Now, I smoke weed almost daily, binge drink whenever I can, and have taken at least 10 pills of MDMA and LSD.
I have lost interest in every passion in my life. I used to be an avid gamer, but now they bore me and I get agitated very easily.
Every day I just start crying randomly. It takes little to nothing to get me upset. Sometimes I feel so upset I fight to resist breaking down.
I think of suicide at at least once every hour of the day unless I am under the influence of a substance.
I feel I am turning into a “druggie” and inevitably will end up begging on the streets for my “drug addiction” I do not want this but I feel I can’t move up from this downward spiral.
I feel I cannot talk to anybody in my immediate family about it because I have a hard-headed father that will never speak to me again if he ever found out. And it WILL leak to him if I tell anybody in my family.
I refuse to take any medication and cannot afford $ 200/hr for a professional psychologist. There is a 2 year waiting list for government funded psychologists but I simply feel it will be too late by then.
I feel disconnected from everybody, including my family. I feel I don’t belong and if things progress as they have been over the past 2 months then I will be left with no choice….
Best answer:
Answer by Kay
dude, i think u have depression u should go to the doctor to get checked out…
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