OK, I Need Some Assurance That My Son Will Be Ok.?

Question by : OK, I need some assurance that my son will be ok.?
SORRY SO LONG……..
When my now ex husband and I got together 13 years ago (before married) I found out he was addicted to meth. He went to counseling and I told him he had to be clean for at least a year before we get married. Of my little knowledge of drugs at the time, I assumed he did exactly that and we were married a year later. 4 months after we got married, on his birthday, I actually found him doing drugs with someone else. Long story short I forgave him and again we went to counseling. Then he had a back surgery and became addicted to pain medication for about 4 years. I begged, pleaded, cried, and tried to change him and help him short of dropping him off at rehab. I was a stressful wreck for years because I didn’t DARE talk about it to someone out of fear he would get angry and leave me. I wasn’t allowed to be close to his family, for reasons I didn’t understand then but now I do. Needless to say after 5 years of marriage, I became close with another man but when my husband found out about it, I stopped seeing him and back to counseling we went. My husband promised to work on it because he didn’t want to loose me. Well we moved and he wanted to get off the pain meds so he started a methadone clinic to get off the meds. In the meantime, I got pregnant and had our son. He has been addicted to methadone for five years and I had had enough. I decided to divorce. Well before the divorce was final I met the most amazing man who treats me unbelieveably well as well as my son. The lawyer suggested that I do 50/50 custody because all my husband (at the time) had to do was to get his doctor to state to the court he needs the meds for back pain. (I can’t prove the doctor shopping and different clinics) So now our custody is 50/50 and the now ex is pissed and telling my son things like “mommy made me move out”, “it is your mommies fault we are not together”. I have spent 13 years in an emotional, stressful, lonely state and I feel as if I have finally found my peace with God and myself. My son however (5 years old) wants to be with Daddy all the time (daddy pays for nothing, owes me a lot), I do not dare tell my son about drugs and addictions at 5 so how can I combat what he says. I feel my son turning on me and I am crushed because I want to put my son first. I do not bad mouth or say anything about the ex to him. NO matter how difficult it has been to keep my tongue. I fear he will decide to move in with his father when he turns 14 and I am an emotional mess. WHAT DO I DO? Is my son going to be ok??? Will he love me?

Best answer:

Answer by awommack
just tell him

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