I Think I May Be Depessed?
Question by bell: I think i may be depessed?
I’m sorry if I skip letters; my brother messed up my computer while I was sleepin and it won’t type correctly.
I’m only a teenager – thirteen. I know it’s hard to diagnose a teen becuse of hormoes and crap, but I’m still wondering.
I do think about death and suicide, but definately not as much as I used to. It’s often at night, early in the morning, or whenever I have serious time to think. Usually when that happens, I end up crying or just tearing up and sleeping.
I wnt to do well in school and my supplies are pretty organized, but that’s really the only organized thing about me. Sometimes I get inspired or something and wan to clean my room and reorganize it, but I usuall give up in a few hours.
When people say bad things about me, I usually don’t ake it very hard at first. I thik I bottle it up for later when I’m alone ro something.
I don’t talk to mny of my friends anymore. Most of them have started hanging out with different people, and soetimes won’t even look at me in the halls when walking with someone else, but I could just be jealous. I talk a lot to my parents, but usually it’ just messing arond or fighting.
I alsothink I lie a lot. I don’t know if tha;s a symptom of depression or not. I’m not lying now, really. > n < I've also seriously considered self-harm a few times, and almost started again, but last time I just poked myself a few times with a sharpened tooth pick and I felt better. he other times I feel asleep. I've lost almst al interest in my Taekwondo classes, there are other things I want to do, but we don't have mony to afford them. My instructor often asks me to sit out because I don't participate and have a bad attitude. I sleep a lot. But I've been doing it for a while. It's just probably a habbit. Sometimes I think about what it would be like to be dead. So far I've concluded tat whn you're dead, youre dead. You don't exsist anymore. You don't have any emotions or feel anything or have to worry about being fat or your hair messing up or brushing your teeth. You'd just be a dead person. Death would also help people, since part of life is learning to let go and move on. I ceraintly don't think no one would miss me though, if i killed myself. I've also tried to starve myself, but it's not realy possible since I have two nights a week where I HAVE to eat since my family's watching and they would evetully start to notice. I feel really selfish and ignorant because of this as well. ; - ; The reason I'm not teling my parents or a trusted adult is because they'd probably just say, "You aren't depressed, get over yourself" o something along those lines. I want to get treatment if I'm depressed, but first I have to know if 'm depressed. Since I don't want to tell this to my parents, I can't really tell anyone, thus I can't get "tested" for depression. What should I do? Please, please don't suggest "pray because God will help." So far, that hasn't worked. I don't want to call the suicide hotline or anything; people have bigger problems than me, like drugs and stuff, and I'd just be selfish to call and waste their time. Best answer:
Answer by xXbriiiiiiXx
I know what you mean- I’m just a little older than you, and have already been diagnosed with severe depression. I was put on medication, have seen therapists, and was hospitalized for over a month this summer for my cutting, depression, anxiety, and family issues.
I think some of the things you described are “symptomatic” of depression. Bottling your emotions up, not sleeping at night, thinking too much, suicidal thoughts, etc all seem to kinda sum up what I’ve been going through, which led to my diagnosis.
You’re definitely not being selfish… I don’t know why anyone who understood would think that. You can’t really always help your thoughts if you have depression since it’s caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain that you can’t control.
Some coping skills I’ve used for my depression are listening to music, writing, exercising, and art. Music has probably helped me the most, since I try to listen to stuff that I can relate to, and helps me vent my emotions. Sometimes, I’ll turn it up kinda loud (not too loud, though) so that I can’t even think.
Maybe you don’t think people would mind if you killed yourself, but I would! Your life is sooo valuable, and you have so much to offer! Maybe you could be the one to cure cancer, write some great books, help people out… whatever you want to do!
If you ever need someone to “talk” to, you can email me if you want :)…
I love you-best of luck!
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