Its late and I am not in bed. I have been thinking all day. He woke up alittle while ago. And I do not think he even remembers how mean he talks to me…I told them there is detox nearby and i feel he has shut himself off in the room to do this himself. I believe he hates himself when he is like this. Thanks for your answers. I have gone to al-anon and I do go to AA. I had been sober myself for about 18 yrs until he and I met. He is manipulative when it comes to the drugs. I believe he can truly stop. The rehab or hospital as you may call it ….is one of the best in the usa…. my insurance paid for 2 trips not just one .i told them i was afraid he would end up dead.. i do have a big heart. I do love him and I want to stay with him. Its hard to understand what to do to help… i guess prayer, and if I can get him back to AA,. They suggested a halfway house ….i think that would be good even though i do not want to be without him …..but in reality…..he is not truly with me now…part of him has been taken over by the disease….or most of him…….he is the sweetest man, and has so many talents.. and i feel he could do alot more….with his life…… he does need to change everything …….i feel we need to move. his family is really no help they stress him out more and put him down… i sometimes am wrong because when he is high i will say crap to try and shock him back into reality…..he hears it but he does not care and it does not register with him. So really I am only hurting him with my words even if they are the truth. I do not want it to be worse. I did many drugs and was very stupid until i was 27. I had children in my first marriage . now all grown. And like I said I remarried. I have been ready to fall apart for the last couple weeks. I hate talking to friends. Because I do not want them to know. I know everyone is different. What else can I do?
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