How to Stop & Deal With Cutting?
Question by Oatmeal: How to Stop & Deal with Cutting?
Please, if you are going to be a judgmental jerk about this don’t even read this.
I’ve been dealing with some serious depression for almost four years now starting in 8th grade. I was so scared when I started to feel so depressed all the time. I would often overdose on common pain killers but they never did much. I also started cutting but at first it wasn’t bad cuts at all, they were minor scratches to say the most. After about a year I went to my mom and the next day she took me to the hospital to get a ‘suicide assesment’ and the recommended me going to a psych ward but I refused. I stopped all of those things for quite a while and my mom started to bring me to a psychologist and a psychiatrist. I’ve been seeing the same two people for a couple years now. I’m on anti-depressants that for 1 1/2 years have been working quite well for me. I’ve had a few times where I’ve been pretty depressed for a week at a time but nothing compared to how i used to be. Anyways, this last summer I started drinking a lot more and when i would drink i would get even more depressed since alcohol is a depressant and all. I cut myself very, very badly to the point where there will always no matter what be huge scars all over my left arm. One time when i drank i overdosed on prescription pills pretty badly and i had to go to the ER and i was given a paralyzer and something else that completely knocked me out for about two days. They had to pump my stomach and put charcoal into my stomach through a tube in my mouth and i was on a respirator and all of this gross crap. I was in the actual hospital for about a week then i was put into a psych ward for another week and a half then i was discharged and went into outpatient for another week. I had been doing very well since then but lately something in my brain is making me want to cut sooo badly and I’ve been listening… I’ve also been thinking a lot about overdosing again but i just can’t put myself to that and see my mom have to go through what she did again. Anyways, i really badly want to stop cutting but it’s become this huge habit. To me… it more addictive than cigarettes and i’ve been smoking for a couple years. It’s just insane how i feel like i have no control over hurting myself or not. I feel like I HAVE to do it or else… i don’t even know… i’m going to explode or something. The reason I really want to stop is because I’ve had the same boyfriend for a pretty long time now and every time i do it he says that it brings him flashbacks of his ex who he was with for a few years and she did some pretty messed up stuff to him… anyways, I feel bad and jealous at the same time and I’M the problem for it. I need help so bad! I don’t know HOW to stop! I’ve talked to my psychologist about it and she’s recommended all those little stupid trick things that don’t work for me at all. like putting an ice cube to your wrist till it feels like it’s burning but you’re not actually doing and permanent damage. I’ve tried all of that kind of shit but it never has worked. Does ANYONE have ANY suggestions at all? Any bit of advice could really help out. I know this was pretty long so anyone who actually read all of this, thank you so much. help!? :/
Best answer:
Answer by An experienced Suicide Bomber!
Masturbation is the answer to all stress problems!!!
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