How Do I Straighten Out My Life?

Almost a year ago, I left my wife to start my recovery. I was addicted to drugs and virtually a mess. I moved across the country with my parents at 29 years old and left behind a 2 year old daughter. I slowly started to repair my life and things were looking up. Then St. Patty’s day I got an out of state DUI in MD. First offense, .11. I still don’t have a lawyer and my court date is next Wednesday. Last week,I got arrested and stayed in jail over night in my home state of PA for public drunkeness( I tried to kill myself by laying in the middle of the road) and resisting arrest. I beat my head against the concrete repeatedly. I also got my final divorce papers, she filed. She wants to try again. So, on Tuesday, I have a hearing in PA for my charges of public drunkenness and resisting arrest. In the process, I lost my job for not being able to make it to work. I have never missed or been late to work before this week. I just want my life straight and to return to my daughter. I am never violent towards others, just completely self-destructive. Help. This has little to do with alcohol, even though it was involved. I have been clean from Cocaine and Crystal meth for nearly a year. I slipped one night with cocaine over a month ago, but had little interest in the drug since then.
Also, when not drinking or imbibing I feel worthless. It’s not alcohol. I know how to drink responsibly. I just sometimes choose not to. It helps everything seem ok for awhile. AAHHHHHHHH