Whats Wrong With Me? Is It to Late for Me to Become Anything in Life?
Question by Yvette Castro: whats wrong with me? Is it to late for me to become anything in life?
Every morning when i wake up. I wake up with much regret. I feel like i wasted half my life and i know i did. I used to live in los Angele’s california started running away from home as soon as i hit middle school.
Went to juvi at twelve. My mom got married and we moved to orange county i was addicted to running away being on the streets with older girls who i thought were my friends. when i was thirteen i started doing drugs mainly crystal meth
started going to juvi in orange county
went to a group home ran away from there
the staff tried to get close to me but at fourteen i didn’t want anyone one to get close to me
i didnt think right i got off probation soon because my time ran out thats when i moved in with my boyfriend i when i was fifteen i i had been with him for a year and thought he was the one moved in with him and went threw a year of hell and soon left moved back in with my mom witch ended up being even worst we would fight all the time it came to a point where her husband left her because of me we moved to ontario california i tried to change tried to be the perfect daughter she wants but i just couldnt so we moved back to orange county she started getting with her x husband again and she would leave me alone at home for weeks she thought they were going to get back so she sent me to utah now im living in utah with my uncle and i’m not in school im bored with my life i wake up feeling numb. i go to sleep late because i cant stop thinking about what a failure i am
i try to find a job but same thing no one hiring. Half my family hates me and when i came to live with my uncle it hurt so bad when they told him “be carefull she might get you in trouble” I feel hurt alone lost confused i m quiet half the day. And hardly ever laugh a few weeks ago i erased half my friends from myspace and erased there cell phone numbers
I dont talk to anyone anymore besides my uncle. the only reason i have high school credits s because we have to go to school in juvi i’m bad at writing math everything. you can sit there and say wow this girl is stupid i dont care its thee truth and truth hurts.
I dont know what to do anymore? I dont know where to start.? where to continue?
No im not suicidal i rather deal with the messed up life i have and get it over with.
I want to change but i just dont know how? I feel useless and do not know what to do?
My life is boring every day is just another day is this how life supposed to feel? You can leave whatever comments you like i dont really care you want to talk crap go for it i just thought maybe someone would have a good explanation for what is wrong with me
Best answer:
Answer by adam
way too long,shorten this book up by a few chapters
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