What Do I Do Now? I Left Rehab in May After a Long Year. Now, After 2 Months, I Have Screwed Up Again.?

Question by Baby: What do I do now? I left rehab in May after a long year. Now, after 2 months, I have screwed up again.?
I need help. I feel horrible right now. I was sent away to an in-patient rehab/juvie facility May 2008. I could not leave, have any privileges, or have contact with the outside world until May 2009. It was a horrible experience. Now, within 2 simple months, I have screwed my life even worse.
Last year, my mom and I did not get along at all. I started testing with weed and snorting my prescribed amphetamines. I was also experimenting with drinking, but it was not that bad. My mom knew only of my horrible behavior and did not know about all the drugs and alcohol that much.
When I returned from the program I felt great. I was so happy to be free and swore I’d never go back to my old ways, but then this all changed about 3 weeks ago now. Within this time frame, I have started having sex (which I’ve never done till now), I am snorting my pills again, I am sneaking out every night with my boyfriend (my mom doesn’t know about), I’m smoking cigarettes and I’ve smoked weed twice, and I have been getting drunk. The choices I am making now are worse than back in 2008! I’m doing even worse things than I did before I went into the program.
Help me please! I know I am doing wrong, but I don’t want to stop. I need support, but I can’t tell my mom (she would send me away again). I can’t go back there. I had no love there.
How can I motivate myself to get back on track?
I feel like a screw up, yet I still want to do this stuff. ;(

Best answer:

Answer by Megan C
well your young so its natural to want to party, but you can still be resposible. Stop the snorting and get back on track. Tell your mom about your boyfriend because it is a good way to build back her trust. Stop sneaking out also your mom tells you no for a reason!

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