I’ve Hit Rock Bottom. I Need Your Help and Advice…please :(?
Question by Bellaruse: I’ve hit rock bottom. I need your help and advice…please :(?
I always wondered when it would happen, and what it would be like when I got here. I’m completely at rock bottom, and I feel like I’m drowning. I need to get this out to someone because I can’t tell the people that can help me at this point. I don’t know how.
Basically, I’m addicted to the worst of the worst 3 drugs, other than meth. As ridiculous as it sounds, meth and the people addicted to it scares and disgusts me(as if I’m any better). I didn’t plan on naming my drugs of choice, but I think I should if I’m going to really do this. I’m heavily addicted to cocaine, heroine and crack. I never have and never will use a needle though. I smoke the heroine and crack, and snort the coke. I feel so ashamed to be this way, and can’t beleive that this is what has become of me. I’ve begun to hate myself.
The point is, I need help. I know that my mother would do anything to save me, but there’s a big problem. I’ve been in and out of several rehabs….
After her final attempt at saving me by flying me to Brazil for 3 weeks to see some “healer”, I couldn’t bare to break her heart any more. I’ve been doing a fantastic job at covering this up and have convinced her that I’m completely sober. Now I feel screwed. I’ve completely exhausted all of my $ , infact, I’m overdrawn in my bank acct. I can’t afford to eat, much less continue paying rent, yet if I don’t smoke some H, I’m completely sick and in pain. The other drugs are not as hard for me to let go, but this heroine is no f’ing joke. How do I tell my mom that , once again, I’m f’d up and need help again. It may seem simple, but I’ve put that woman through so damn much, I feel like I’m going to give her a heart attack. This is killing me. Can anyone help with some advice? Please be kind though-I’m not doing well. Thanks 🙁
Best answer:
Answer by branddxb
so what if u have been to several rehabs. go one more time! maybe this time it will work permanently. tell ur mom. believe me its better for all concerned.
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