I am foreign exchange student. i have been in usa for 4 years. At first everything was ok. The people i was hangingout were doing drugs, therefore i did it too. ( these people were also in school and seemed to be doing everything at school and out just right) I did extasy for a year about 20 times all together and quit( that was 3 years ago) i have been smoking weed 4 4years daily and quit a month ago and did meth amphetamine about 5 times in the past year and the last time ( a month ago i snorred a thin line) i dont do anythig anymore. But have a problem seems like after the last time i snorred that line of ice ( a thiny one) and after i quit weed ( quit weed a little before i did the last ice) i cannt stop my brain of thinking and worrying about a lot of stuff. I happens every day and it gets to the point that i will have a headache around my forehead and side. I just think myselfe to death. I just work all day long 6 days a week. Dont have time for friends or girlfriend.
It seems like i dont know how to talk to people anymore, dont know who i am, i have mood swings, i ll get mad at people for no reason….. I worry a lot about how people see me, I try to think wath they think about me and like that a get myselfe down quickley and its all the time and i dont have no confidance. Everybody says i am very goodlooking and i think so too. I am 23 and seems like now i have all kinds of insecurities. I am going to psychiatrist in 2 weeks but wanted to know if anybody has axperienced anythink like that before, do u guys think it might be the fact a dont smoke weed anymore and am back to reality or is it the ice I snorred making my brain go crazy and you think with the time I will be fine. Cant handle it anymore. I feel its like I cant focus sometimes like ADHD but its not like i have that cause i red the symptomes and its different or can u say its and small case of ADHD due to use of drugs. Any help please.
Can i be curred completely to go back to college….
The fact that i judge people all the time is making me go crazy and judging people in one way jumps to another and another so quick i cant do nothing about it and it puts me down and i get emotional …. I appreciate any help that can relieve me. Thanks
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